I have my appointment to meet Melanie, was booked on the 24th forgot it was bank holiday and Melanie works hard enough so changed my train ticket to 25th instead. Had a barny with Cross Country Trains as they charged me more to change the ticket that it actually was. I thought train would be better as my head is not in the right place for a long drive & it will give me time to think about the meeting. Looking forward to it as it seems to be the next step forward.Well not teary today just very tired. I have not slept properly for about 4 years, even now i still end up in spare room or sofa but I in the last week I have gone the other way & all I want to do is sleep I went to sleep at 8.30pm the other night & slept for 10 hours. I can not even remember doing that as a child. Problem is I still feel tired all the time. I have been reading on the forum about others with sleep problems it really is awful. I always said that if I got my sleep I can tackle anything but even with the better sleep I am getting I feel very very tired. I expect it is years of sleepless nights worrying about the dreaded markets. I held it all together so well for so long I got used to it.A trading friend rang me the other day, she is doing just what I was chasing her tail getting nowhere fast only deeper into debt. I encouraged her to stop before she got into debt as bad as me. I really hope she does. When I put down the phone I actually pitied her as she was still in denial thinking that it will all come good in the end, (which it never does)
Awful weather & hubby rained off which is bad news as he is self employed no work no pay. He works in most weather but yesterday was dangerous (up scaffolding near a cliff)
My brother gets his results today at the hospital so all fingers crossed. XX
